DROWNING

What can i do?
Each time I see you,
I think about the loving, lustful, always secret feelings
I drown myself, my mind, my spirit, my very being in.

My beating heart wants to jump out of my skin
For wanting to be with you.
I feel it so badly, it's an aching in my ribs,
So badly I can taste it on my tongue
Like I taste you in my dreams.

And from my dreams,
I wonder how it feels to hold you.
Is your skin soft?
Your kiss tender?

How would your body fit, pressed against mine?
Feeling you behind me, in front of me,
Wanting to feel you one with me.
Your hand cupping the back of my head,
Eyes penetrating like we're drowning in each other.

And would drowning be so bad?
Merging, flowing, breathing in each other's water
As I swim in the sapphire sea of your eyes,
And you in the emerald ocean of mine.

I drown, always, for you.

(12-7-2001)